My sweet boy …. the only time his body (and mind) are fully at rest. ..

So peaceful …

I could watch him sleep all night…

As I sit here looking at his sweet little face… I wonder …. and I wonder a lot…

I think it’s typical for parents of children with disabilities to think and wonder what things will be like ….

What their future holds …

What will they be like ?

Will things get better ? Worse ?

Stay the same?

High school…

College …

“Aging out” ..

Life skills …

Will they be independent?

Work …

Family …

The list goes on and on…

There’s not a day that goes by that I don’t worry … that I don’t “wonder ” what he’ll be like …

Hearing things like oh my sisters friends cousin has autism and she graduated from college with honors!

Or … my friends brother has autism and you can’t even tell !

Or … oh he’s going to be fine ! I mean doctors think he’ll talk some day right ? You know like we do ?

Oh well it worked for my friends daughter, I don’t know why it didn’t work for your son..

Now I know that when people say these things .. they mean well. I truly believe that.

But Every Single Child and Adult with autism are DIFFERENT

Please please please try to understand that ..

There is no “look”

There is no “type ”

And as much as we LOVE to hear stories about success and goals met and things achieved … we still worry … we still wonder ..

They are “our babies” and it’s OK as their moms and dads to do that..

One thing my husband and I never lose sight of is HOPE and LOVE.

Although we may worry and wonder …

we will always have hope.

We trust that God gives us strength through this journey and watches over our family as we take on autism together.

My sweet bubba … you bring us so much joy and happiness and have made our family stronger than I ever thought possible. Mommy, Daddy, Braidan and sissy love you so much and we are in this together supporting you every step of the way.